Lost Wanderer

To join the crowds there
Is to lie to myself
Because my realm is here
Where I suppose to believe

My face shows the expression
That no one could understand
It is not my reflection
But I could not comprehend

I struggle so hard to smile
That none seems to realize
I laugh at myself in a while
How strong I can stand such lies

I wander in this hazy journey
Looking for my ship to sail
Until there comes the fateful day
To be freed from the cursed jail