praktek pun perlu

yups, ujian praktek has just finished. hmm.. how was it?well, i dunno what word would describe it perfectly. let's just say... FANTASTIC ... =Pso fantastic that it fulls of excitement, nervousness, laughters, foolishness, spontaneity, and preparation...

the thing that i hate most is preparation. i hate it because we were given time to prepare. not just depend on spontaneity. i'd prefer spontaneity, it means we only bring ourself in and feel as if we ARE confident... (even if we aren't) =P sometimes, it doesn't turn as well as we've prepared. it also about how u can manage your nervousness...i like the times when we can be so spontaneus.. not only depend on our preparation..

but still..
i believe that preparation is still needed.. but sumtimes it makes me stressful.. over and over again i wanna depend on luck and spontaneity, but i can't be what i wanna be.. i'm so unproncipled.. so seeing others preparing themselves so properly made me feel down and followed their steps.. prepare and prepare.. being controlled of
our own panic..

a super big salute for them who prepared almost nothing but felt 'SO confident' or in other words let's juz say.. 'pasrah'... ;p i really respect them being such principled...
sigh, why couldn't i just be like them? no panic.. no worries.. just be spontaneus at the right time.. just be relaxed.. =)

these ujian praktek surely has given us lessons and experiences and confidence (for me)... i dunno that i could perform that well at the presentation since i hadn't given any time to do a real 'simulated' performance.. ;p gratefully, i did my best.. yay!

those moments just also ensure me that i'm just a FOOL.. esp in chemistry exams ;p ohoho so shameful yet shameless ;pbut those are really great idea to make us realize that we are strong since we had passed the deadly days so 'smoothly' ohoho

as the ujian praktek has been passed, i'm still worried in one of my score.. oh i made a very stupid mistake.. and now i'm afraid if i can't graduate because of that one subject T_T i know it sounds as if i put too much of stress thinking of it.. ALL of my friends say that it is impossible to fail just because of one ujian praktek.. yeah we won't
know how someone really feels if we haven't faced it ourself, don't we all agree with that?hoho let's juzt forget it..

all i wanna say is just be relaxed and dun press yourself too hard.. but it doesn't mean u can underestimate it all.. just what i've been doing w/ my ujian sekolah ;p i haven't prepared anything, really... it's isn't 'ngemeng', it is 'kemalasan' ohoho ;p

okay, gotta go preparing for the last battle to a new beginning ~~